Unfulfillment to Power
“You Have Nothing to Lose”
Realization
After I drop my daughter off at school, I talk to my husband on the way to work. This particular morning, I can’t remember what we were talking about but I started to choke up. You the know the choke up where there is some form of mass developing behind your tongue that makes it difficult to complete your words out of fear of an uncontrollable cry being close behind. I was realizing the unsettling, uneasy, almost deafening noise ringing in my spirit was largely unfulfillment.
For months I’ve walked around just going through the motions. Unable to identify the source of this cloud that was hovering consistently over me. I had been on a rollercoaster ride of inconsistent emotional highs and lows. God was consistently showing Himself in my life. I was growing spiritually. My family life was flourishing but I just couldn’t seem to pinpoint this “feeling.” I began to explain to my I’m sure, very confused husband, that I didn’t hate my job but rather, I knew there was so much more breeding down on the inside of me that needed to be released.
Acknowledge
Often we ignore the feeling of unfulfillment because along with it comes feelings of ungratefulness. There's a way to acknowledge unfulfillment, while also acknowledging, God I trust this season in my life, but I know you're calling me to greater. Left unaddressed, those feelings continue to expand until there’s no longer space for the both of you in the room! We will never be content being half the version of who God is calling us to be, we’re whole in Him!
The Move
I was incredibly grateful for the revelation but what do I do now? I move. Move from fear, move from doubt, move from the fear of failure that will place a grip so strong on you, that it leaves you paralyzed with uncertainty.
I spent the weeks to come strategizing on how I would begin to birth this thing down on the inside of me. Research and development would consume me for the next few weeks. Not overwhelmingly consume me but rather I would delve head first into a world unknown. I wanted to learn the most effective way to start my new journey. How to start a blog? Where to go? What to do? I had no clue on where to even start? I would spend weeks on Pinterest, Google, and YouTube praying and hoping for a user friendly approach to find that wouldn’t hinder the process....that didn’t happen....lol. All while praying that I wouldn’t talk myself out of purpose, which often we do. I had to push past my minuscule knowledge of web development to get to the other side. I had to move this cloud!
The Purpose
With social media being the giant that it is, it is not uncommon to have thoughts of been accepted, approved, liked, or being popular. I didn’t want to be merely popular, I wanted to be powerful. I want to use the growth of this potential platform to activate the power in me and in others. Powerful to me, to those I encounter on a daily basis, strangers, and more importantly, the Kingdom of God. I’ve found that freedom resides on the other side of fear.
I desire to use faith, family, and fashion to reach, impact, inspire, motivate women to walk in the fullness of who they are. God has given me this thing that I didn’t understand at one time in my life; a gift to empower and encourage others through exhortation. I am your ‘hype woman, you need encouragement? I’m there with words of council, scripture to nudge you in the right direction, sometimes a stern tone to ignite that flame on the inside of you so that you may activate your own power!
You Have Power!
The power doesn't come because of simply who we are but rather because we serve a great God who has endowed us with power!
Do you know you have power? Do you believe that you have power to walk to the other side of unfulfillment? Someone is depending on your power? It’s bigger than just you, we all have someone attached to us! What is your power? Behold, I give unto you the power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by an means hurt you.
Luke 10:19